how i almost burnt my grandparents' house down

yes, you read right... and let me just say ahead of time, it's really NOT my fault. Last night when i took my jewelry off i hung my spoon necklace and big hoop earrings from the nightlight in the bathroom. i do it all the time at my friends' house, and it's no big deal so i didn't think anything of it. i went to bed. i slept AMAZING. i woke up, went in the bathroom and was like "god what's that smell... smells like something BURNED in here..." i look at the wall, it's like CHARRED right around the outlet and my necklace and earrings are GONE. i'm freaking out. my grandma informed me that when she went in the bathroom earlier and switched the light on, the nightlight and outlet started sparking and then there were big flames. she screamed for my grandpa. and i was asleep the whole time.
needless to say my earrings and necklace are no more... at least the spoon charm on my necklace was salvaged-- i only lost the chain. but geeze. what an eventful first day of vaca, huh?

but seriously... did that sound like it was my fault?? i mean, i was asleep the whole time!

so i suck at blogging...

Between the hellish fall semester (which is FINALLY over, thank GOD), work, and my developing social life, it's been hard to find time to blog.

i mean, seriously ya'll, i didn't know being 21 was so fun! don't get me wrong-- the fact that i barely made rent this month was stressful. but it's better than the stress of playing Mom to two kids. I do not regret anything.

so right... i LOVE my job. Let me go ahead and risk sounding like a nerd and let you know that 90% of the time work is like a part of my social life. We're all pretty much like one big dysfunctional family. seriously. i love it. i love my coworkers...some more than others, but hey...what's a dysfunctional family without playing favorites?? lol
not to mention i spend a lot of my time off at work too... i mean, who can turn down free coffee and good company?

So yeah.
job = good. (job+more hours= even better...lol)
friends = awesome.
semester over = BEST THING EVER. hahaha...

ok. well. i'm out to arizona for christmas. sorry to you STL ppl who were hoping i'd be there for the holidays... i might head up that way before classes start in january if i can afford it.

this semester sucks.

I. HATE. SCHOOL.

seriously

...what the hell is wrong with me?

nevermind. i already know the answer.





i just don't want to talk about it.

more than once upon a time

sometimes it's good.
sometimes it's so bad.

sometimes i'm just trying to get through the day...
sometimes i wish i could just die and leave it all behind.

sometimes i feel too alive.
sometimes i feel slightly dead inside.

sometimes i do stupid shit and then wonder why it backfires.
sometimes i don't do anything and wonder why nothing happens.

sometimes i just want to be 5 years old again...
but most days i wish i was old, married, and retired already.

but more than sometimes i just want to be held. loved. taken care of.
more than sometimes i wonder what the hell i'm doing with my life, and who i really am.

let's cut to the chase:

I'M NOT A NANNY ANYMORE!! WOOHOO! PRAISE THE LORD!
i mean... i will miss the job and the children terribly...

truth is, i do kinda miss the kids. and i miss having a job that i already know the ins-and-outs of. but in all honesty, i am completely glad to be moving on.

i spent my first official night at my new place last saturday...so it's almost been a week. and i love it. my bed will be much more comfortable once i pick up my mattress tomorrow (right now i'm sleeping on a 4" slab of foam... not so nice). and my room is small...but it's mine. i bought the bed (loft bed with a desk underneath), i bought the mattress, and i will eventually buy a dresser to put all of my clothes in. (next paycheck??) i love living with Brandy, Kristy, and Sarah (and Dot and Fifi, of course), and I love being responsible for only me, myself, and i.
then i started my new job at Starbucks (by Lakeside Mall) this past wednesday!! It's awesome. I really like my manager, and i really like most of the employees i've met so far. My first day i met Ansley, who is training too. . . she's a Christian!! She goes to the Baptist Seminary here. We crammed as much talking as we could into our 10 minute break, when i found out she's involved with BCM on Tulane's campus, she's done a few semester mission trips, and her getting the job at SBUX was a total "God thing." Which, of course, got me all excited... i was like "ME TOO! OH MY GOSH I AM SO EXCITED!!" Then she tells me Kayla, whom i still haven't met, goes to the seminary too! PTL i am working with Christians... it's so exciting!! I just keep praying that God will continue to encourage me... i got kind of upset tonight because the training isn't really going the way i'd like it to... i don't really feel like i'm learning anything. I'd like to either be really rigorously trained or just thrown into the mix to figure it out, but standing around is just annoying and boring. Plus there's a girl that works there that i kinda know from UNO...and she's sort of intimidating. she has a very outgoing personality, and she just kind of dominates when she's there... but it's whatever. i need to just get over it. (oh, side note: the guy that delivers the milk is hot as HELL. seriously. it should be illegal for the milkman to be that stinkin' beautiful.)

anyway so yeah... that's my life in a nutshell right now. of course there's the little things... school is crazy-stressful. i have a test coming up in World History and i'm pretty sure i haven't learned a darn thing in that class... i couldn't even begin to tell you what one of the lectures were about, b/c they never stay on topic. i gotta bust a painting out in about a week (do-able). my psych class seems more like a biology class (UGH). Human Sexuality is a required class for anyone wanting to progress in psych classes... which is fine with me. but for right now it's basically like a sex-ed class: anatomy, diseases, procedures, birth control, blah blah blahhhh... i hate it so much. my friend Casie and i spend the entire lecture coloring and doing crossword puzzles. my english class is good... i love that i can totally b.s. my way through english classes. it's pretty much awesome. but shh! don' tell nobodies!

oh! ok, so i didn't buy a parking decal this semester b/c it's almost pointless... you pay 90 bucks, stick it permanently on your car, and spend 20 minutes looking for a parking place every morning, and you end up about a mile or two away from where you need to be. so, really, you might as well park off campus for free, right? Well, someone told me that you could park on the street that runs in front of the UC w/o a parking decal... well, they were WRONG. i definitely got a $50 ticket today. GRRRRRR. just one more thing i have to spend money on. great. fantastic. thank you, UNO! no, no, thank you, really, because i haven't given you enough of my non-existent money already...

aaaaaand on that extremely sarcastic and bitter note, i will bid you all adieu as i head up (yes, 5 feet up, to be exact) to bed.

what does it mean to abide?

((John 15: 1-11))

a·bide /əˈbaɪd/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[uh-bahyd] a·bode or a·bid·ed, a·bid·ing.
–verb (used without object) ((it's an action))

1.	to remain; continue; stay: Abide with me.

2.	to have one's abode; dwell; reside: to abide in a small Scottish village.

3.	to continue in a particular condition, attitude, relationship, etc.; to last.

–verb (used with object)

4.	to put up with; tolerate; stand: I can't abide dishonesty!

5.	to endure, sustain, or withstand without yielding or submitting: to abide a vigorous onslaught.

6.	to wait for; await: to abide the coming of the Lord.

7.	to accept without opposition or question: to abide the verdict of the judges.

8.	to pay the price or penalty of; suffer for.

—Verb phrase

9.	abide by, a. to act in accord with. b. to submit to; agree to: to abide by the court's decision. c. to remain steadfast or faithful to; keep: If you make a promise, abide by it.