twenty-somethingness

i feel like a moody pre-teen.
one minute everything is great... the next i feel like my world is about to end...or wish it was about to end...

apparently i'm having a quarter-life crisis.
apparently this is the time of life when people go all cuckoo-existential trying to figure out who they are and where they belong in the world.
apparently 22-25 is a "pivotal time" when really big things happen.
apparently being a 20-something is like being in that awkward middle school stage all over again.

right so let's just cover the basics here...
i'm living paycheck to paycheck.
i have no idea what i want to do with my life...now OR whenever i finally graduate.
i'm an emotional train wreck... or maybe rollercoaster... or maybe a glass elevator...
i'm completely indecisive. about anything.
my life is boring... but overwhelming at the same time.
at least once a day i feel like crying and saying "i want my mommy."

but thank god for friends.
the miracles are in the details.

amy winehouse speaks my mind...

" We coulda never had it all,
We had to hit a wall,
So this is inevitable withdrawal.
Even if I stop wanting you,
A Perspective pushes thru,
I'll be some next man's other woman soon,

I shouldn't play myself again,
I should just be my own best friend,
Not f*ck myself in the head with stupid men.

He walks away,
The sun goes down,
He takes the day but I'm grown,
And it's OK,
In this blue shade,
My tears dry on their own."