well, project is over and i feel... lost.
i mean, i just spent 5 weeks surrounded by a community of people who i've come to love, spending every waking (and sleeping) moment with them... it just doesn't feel right. i feel so lonely. it's nice to have down time to sleep and just do nothing, but...
i'm not only an emotional wreck, but i physically feel awful. I started a full-body cleansing program yesterday because i think the funk of the city, lack of sleep, excess stress, and emotional exhaustion has just put my body through the wringer.
it feels like someone removed my brain, shook it up, and put it in backwards... then completely sucked the life out of my heart. so basically it feels like someone just broke up with me... but instead of just one person it's like 40 people.
i know it'll get better-- after a couple more days of excessive sleeping and mentally debriefing... but... right now i really hate it.
even worse, the people i felt were going to be the most supportive of my job-changing decisions haven't voiced anything more than doubt. so i've decided not to have any deep, important conversations for a few days.
i can't think any more right now... more to come later.
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