Friday, August 24, 2007

The Lord is good and His mercies will not fail us... they are new each day...

Half of my tuition was due today. If i didn't get it in today, my classes would be dropped.

As of this time yesterday I had made as many phone calls, sent as many emails, and tried every possible thing i could in order to get that money. By 7pm last night I completely laid myself before God and said, "Look-- you brought me here. If school is not where i'm supposed to be spending my time, then so be it! I'm here because of you, Lord. Provide and guide where you see fit." After that, i had a peace... that the Lord was going to do what was right for my life-- whether that meant a financial miracle, or taking a semester off.
I woke up early this morning even though i didn't have classes, made some coffee, and sat in the office wondering what God was going to do. It was really cool because i felt completely in the middle of his will... i had no idea whether i would still be enrolled by the end of today, or if i would be calling the Beacon's executive director about needing a full-time job. Even though I was consumed by this huge unknown, in my complete and total vulnerability, i knew God was at work. It is so awesome to feel God's work... i cannot even explain it.
I got a phone call from my mom this morning, asking if anything had worked out yet. After i told her no, she informed me that someone from KRCC offered to loan me the money i need until my student loan comes in. PRAISE JESUS. Seriously all i could say was thank you... God is so good. He continually reminds me to trust him even to the last minute, that he will not fail me; He reminds me that in my insecurities and fear he is my strength.

"Job said to the Lord: I know you can do all things. No plan of yours can be thwarted." Job 42:1-2

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